* lawrence and alicia *

Friday, June 30, 2006

I have a serious problem.

I snore when I sleep.

AND it is not those soft gentle snore. I mean those gigantic sound that definitely classified as noise pollution.

I think quite a no of people were influenced by my snoring.. Errrrmmm.... dun think otherwise horr, I m saying about my family members, my poor ex-colleague, Hershey when we went Japan for company incentive holiday, unfortunately she was my roommate & my dear..

My dear always mock about my snoring when I had a nap in his room. We were watching a DVD together, he always lie on his bed while I sit on the big Ikea red armchair & normally I will doze off if the program is boring.. When I woke up, I will pretend that I didn't sleep but my dear will always know..

Dear : Boring show horr?
Me : Okie la..
Dear : U doze off still not boring meh?
Me : How u know? *Check my face whether got saliva from drooling*
Dear : Cos I hear u snoring away maaaaa!!!!
Me : ........

I used to work in Jurong area & always take a little time off to close my eyes since it was an hour journey.. & people will ask me how I managed to wake up on time to alight at the rite station, I will reply its easy cos I will be awake by my own snore! Serious! hahahaaa.. I m always awake by my own snore..

Anyway, I think of a perfect wedding gift for my dear liao..

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THIS!!!

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And he will definitely thanks me for it...

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Lawrence and Alicia winks
at |9:40 PM|

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

The other day I was saying I WAS prettier years ago.. It was only 3yrs ago!! :(

& I was flipping thru photos down the memory lane & I found these..

Blur but can see... I look different back then..

I got a better smile & smoother hair, slimmer face.. :(

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Damnnn... Those charming smile!!!

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Slimmer!!!!!!!!

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Pls pardon me while I go cry for a moment..

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Lawrence and Alicia winks
at |9:58 PM|

Monday, June 26, 2006

During kids time, we love CNY!! There r delicious goodies like ba kwa, pineapple tarts, melon seeds, peanuts, chocolates & cashew nut.... also mum will bought some new clothes, bag & shoes to match.. the most fav is of cos collecting angbaos!!

And years later, when we r older, say in our early 20s, some KPO aunties will never fail to say things like "Aiyo, got bf or not? Never bring ur bf along ah?" "When r u getting married harr?" And that is the start of disliking the CNY.. Also, u no longer buy new clothings using ur parent money.. Also cos u r afraid of getting fat, u no longer eat ba kwa like u used to when u were young..

Then fast forward a few years, u even HATE CNY cos the thought of being mocked by the aunties made u feel sick...

I rem my CNY 3yrs ago was the worst one I ever experienced.. My family had organised a CNY gathering in a Sentosa chalet, relatives were all invited.. I rem I jus brokeup with my ex that time & this particular auntie of mine kept rubbing my wound.. Even though my mum has warned her that I hav broken up with my bf, she still (PURPOSELY) asked "Aaaee? Where is ur bf harr?" Being the nice me, I still replied her in a very li mou tone, saying "We r not together anymore" & she still probed further by asking "Dun bluff la.. Come on, where is he?" Dammn irritating rite?? This auntie is always like that, after she knew I broke up with my ex, whenever gathering she saw me, she will keep asking me when m I getting married, she even challenge me to see if I will get married 1st or she will give birth 1st.. SiaooO..

Well, I have forgiven her for her bluntness but I will never forget her sarcastic remarks..

NOW, I know CNY is still another 7mths away BUT I m already starting to fear again.. cos this time my dear & I r going to distribute the angbaos.. This is the time u really wish that u r still single.. My dear side 's relatives have lotsa offsprings, all the cousins add up to at least 20 of them.. My sis said she will spent around 1.5k for angbaos alone.. *Faint*

So next time, if u see me, dun remind me that I have to bao angbao this coming CNY, I will hit u with my bag I swear... heheh!!

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Lawrence and Alicia winks
at |12:43 PM|

Sunday, June 25, 2006

I always hav been a very faithful reader of Singapore Brides forum.. Happen to read a topic that really make me feel a pinch in my heart.. This reader wrote it in her heart & soul.. I feel for her..

It remind me of how badly hurt I was from my previous relationship... becos of that jerk, I m still very suspicious in relationships..

Before I met my husband, I had hurt a guy whom I really regretted hurting.. That time cos I was too blindly in love with that jerk, I chose to patch back with him & dumped that poor guy.. He had done so much for me..

Luckily I woke up & God sent me a even better man... Hence, never NEVER give up if u fall before, cos u learn each time u fall.. & NEVER fall for the trick of guys who lies all the times, if he cheated on u for more than twice, this guy is hopeless..

Well, read on if u got the time cos its a very very long one..

Dear baby,

We have been together for 2.5 years. When my friends called you a jerk and said you are only after a sexual relationship, i defended you cos when i look at you in your eyes, i dont't feel that you are only after sex. I always feel loved when Im with you. Love is blind after all. I refused to believe that you are such a person, but im not so certain of your feelings for me now..

一失足成千古恨， Its really a matter of making the right choice and alot of self controlling, and I made a wrong choice by falling into tempations. If I can go back in time, I wish i had say no to you in the first place.

3 months before (I was) getting married, I got to know you. Before that though we knew each other, we were just hi-bye friends, until your first email came long. Before we knew it, feelings were developed.

You asked me if I can cancel the whole thing becos of you. You said you love me and wish to be with me. You had a girlfriend back then, she was with you for 6 years. You claimed you had no more love for her, its only out of commitment that you are staying with her. And i believed you. But i could not take the risk. We are just starting to get to know each other, I dont't know if your feelings for me are for real, I went ahead with my marriage, i cried so much days before my marriage. I wanted to tell hubby no but i lacked the courage. Worse, I made the wrong move by carrying on with you.

All these while, you keep asking me if ever there will be this day that i will leave him and be with you. I always keep quiet. I wanted so much to say yes, but I was afraid that i would disappoint you. You even asked if it is becos of my status (if i go thru a divorce then I would be a divorcee) that is affecting my decision to be with you. You said you can do the same, you can marry her then go thru divorce. I scolded you for being irrational, i told you i don't want you to hurt her becos of me, I asked you not to harbour such thoughts. You said you will wait for me, no matter how long it will take. You said you will be ready the moment Im ready. I was a fool to believe u.

A year later, you said you have broken up with her. Throughout this period you pamper me like a princess, you showed so much love and concern. I felt guilty towards hubby and also I felt that I was tying you down. Deep inside me, i wished that you can find someone better, someone more worthy of your love becos this isnt fair to you and to hubby. So I started to take you for granted, started to be cold towards you. You sense the change in me, you made an effort to make things better, but i just want to leave you gradually, I thought our feelings for each other would fade away with each day. Slowly, you got immuned to my behaviour, and becos of your work, we had lesser time for each other, we started to cut down on our contacts with each other, we don't tell each other on what we will be doing anymore. I was prepared to leave you, or at least I thought I was ready to leave you. All these while both of us have our fair share of turns initiating a break-up. We tried so many times to leave each other, but always got back again due to lack of determination.

Few months later my 6th sense was telling me something was wrong, so i keep asking you if you had another woman outside. You insisted no. Not wanting to doubt you, i told you if you have another woman, let me know and i will go. You asked me not to be suspicious.

Things had not been going well for us. We were supposed to meet on our 2nd anniversary, but i smsed you to postpone our meet up cos I had something on. Then you called in the afternoon. You said you want to let go. You said you are tired. You said you want to settle down, i said ok, i agreed, and asked you who that girl was. You said its her, your so called ex-gf of 6 years. I asked you when you got back into contact with her, cos you told me you had broken off with her. You said recently. I wished you well, thou deep inside me, i was upset. I was so wrong in thinking that im ready to leave you.

The next morning, i saw that you had sms me a few times. You asked me not to pick up any calls from this particular number. I called and ask you why. And that is when you dealt me with a big blow. You confessed that you have gotten married a few months ago. You did not break up with her at all. All along when I wasnt able to contact you, you were with her.

I was shocked, speechless for words. You had to confess because she will be calling me again, and you don't want her to be the one to inform me about your marriage. You said she peeped at your hp and saw my number. True enough, she called an questioned my why I keep calling you. She said she is your wife, and she wants to know our relationship. Do you know I had to hold back my tears to assure her that were were just closed friends? Do you also know that I have actually wanted to leave my hubby for you? You made so much promises, in the end you broke them one by one.

I asked you why, i want to know why you lie. You keep saying you dont know. For a whole year I thought I was the only woman in your life, little did i know you were fooling me all this while. She is still there, and has became your wife. We were so happily celebrating your birthday last year at Ritz, little did i know its also the time that you were busy preparing for your marriage. Its really retribution, I treated hubby this way, and now i got the same treatment from you.

Its my turn to ask you if you can leave her. You said no. You said u felt a sense of responsibility towards her, and at the time you married her, there is love for her. So much of when im ready, you'll be ready. So much of waiting for me no matter how long it takes. I cried so much, but i couldnt bring myself to leave you. The hurt comes not so much of your marriage with her, but from your lies. You lied to me for a whole year. If you had not led me into believing that you had left her, i would have wished you well in your marriage with her, thats the truth. I could not accept the fact that you claimed so much of loving me and want me to be truthful to you but all along, you had been lying to me.

My heart aches when I saw your marriage photos, you were so happy, so genuinely happy. Too late to realise that you meant alot to me. But I hanged on. Dumb. Things changes after your marriage, I saw your growing responsibility towards her. She became your top priority, I saw the love for her grows. I felt sored, i felt hurt. You have stopped doing the things that you did in the past, you stopped msging me when you are at home, you keep saying you were busy. I hardly get any calls from you.. I cried myself to sleep everyday, and I had to put up a false front in front of hubby. I hated myself for making my life into such a mess.

And when I told you Im pregnant and force you to make a choice, you chose her. I was shattered. You always claimed that you love and wanted to be with me most, and you said you want a bb with me. We used to day dream about our future together, how many kids we gonna have, where we will be going for our honeymoon. It really hurts to know that all these are just mere talks by you. You wanted me to go for an abortion. I was angry, I asked you why she is so darn important to you, such that you can give us up without the need for consideration. You asked me not to force you. Eventually you couldnt take it and blurted out that she too aborted your child when you just started out on your career. You said you owed it to her. You said both of you made a vow not to bring this incident up again. I asked you how about me? You said you were sorry and that you owed me for life. This is not what I want.

Anyone in the right sense would leave you straight away. Something must be wrong with me, darn wrong with me. Why did i persist? Why couldnt i bring myself to leave you? I know you wont ever leave her for me. Why didnt i let go? You were just so important. Did not realise that by hanging on would only inflict more pain and hurt to myself. And all these while, hubby was being kept in the dark. I felt like a bitch. I have a wonderful hubby, but here i was degrading myself, lowering my self-esteem becos of you.

Days were hard to pass since the day I get to know of your marriage. I cried everyday, from the understanding gf, I became paranoid, i became demanding. I started to get on your nerves by bothering you with my never ending questions.

2 weeks ago, after much struggle, I finally made up my mind to leave you. I cannot stand the way you are treating me. I wrote you a 5-pages letter to tell you i want to let go. It was an emotional drain on me and I could not manage the pain. I told you im sinking into depression. I would cry everytime I think of you. I want you to know how i felt. I even printed out the stories of ppl in this forum so that you can know what Im going thru. U apologised, you said you want to start afresh, you asked me to give you another chance. You said you will spend more time with me, to make-up to me. I asked you what good will it do us to stay in this way, I asked you why cant you leave me. You said you really love me, just that at this moment, you are not prepared to leave her yet. All these while you had been lying to me, you said you will change and promise not to lie again. I was made into believing you once more.

In just 2 week's time you lied again. You told me you need to go for training and the reception was bad over there. You said you might not be able to call and sms me so often. My intuition told me you are going for holiday with her, and i asked you so. I already told you i just want the truth, i told you i will get very angry if I discover the truth myself. To assure me, you said I can safe keep your passport. Silly of me to say not necessary.

Hurts to know that you really lied. You swear and promise so much till it has become a habit. All these swearing and promising has no meaning on you. Don't you know that I just want you to be truthful? I wont be stopping you from going on a tour with her. Does it costs you so much to tell the truth? And u can even flare up at me for doubting you. Yes, Im stupid, but Im still capable of finding out the truth. I felt like a fool, here I am worry for you and there you are holding her hands roaming the streets happily.

Time to let go, I don't wan to live in your lies anymore. I want to go back to be the jovial pax before i get to know you. I hated myself so much now. I have been hurt in my past relationships, but not as bad as this one. I know i deserved it. I will stop dreaming about you and our future, all the lovely things about you have vanished last week. Its time to wake up. From today onwards, I will give all my love and attn to my hubby. Becos of you, I have started to appreciate him more. Our relationship has been improving cos' he is now able to spend more time with me. Be true to her, that is the last i ask of you. Dont make the same mistake again. She is your choice, treasure her well. Love her well. For me, I dont ever want to be invloved with you again. I think I deserved a better life.

For those who are somehow in the same situation as me, please wake up soon. Its really not worth it. Guys will always go back to their wives, while woman will be silly enough to be willing to give up our own happiness for them. You definitely deserve someone better. Please find the strength to leave them. It took me 2.5 years to wake up, after so much of hurt and pain. I hope it will be shorter for those who are caught in such a relationship.

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Lawrence and Alicia winks
at |9:59 PM|

Friday, June 23, 2006

Fact about me (U may or may not know)

1) I was once slimmer (yes, u hear me, slimmer) AND pretty, got quite a lot of comments from people who saw me.. They would (past tense) praise that I was (past tense again) pretty.

2) When I was younger, I got quite a few suitors (CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?) 3 of them were married men, 2 of them even kneeled down to propose to me.

3) I m a "walking vinegar" aka jealous queen, I dislike my dear to have female frens who r prettier than me.. Mayb becos I have low self-esteem ba?

4) I will scream when I see xiao qiang, esp the flying one..

5) I used to behave like an Ah Lian & patronized pub quite often (Doesn't look like one hor?)

6) My idol once was Vivian Chou.. I was SO crazy about her until I bought almost her full collection of idol cards..

7) I can hold alcoholic drink quite well..

8) I had an elder brother whom I truly adored & still miss him dearly. He passed away on July 2005.

9) My poor hair has been suffered from rebonding for at least 6 times, permed 3 times before and hair colour for COUNTLESS times.. I bet if it has a mouth, it will split on me & scold all the $#^**%$# to me for all the damages it has to go through...

10) When I was much younger, I wana be a celebrity.. Never mind if is a singer or actress.. I luv the glamorous of being a star.. Of cos given a look & figure like mine, dream is a dream.. Now I can only depend on my offspring to fulfill my dream.. keke..

11) I REALLY really hate my ROM dress. Period.

12) I m a Christian yet I believe in fortune telling, horoscope & zodiac reading.. :P

13) I have a "smelly" bear which I always hug to sleep every single nite.. I simply cannot sleep well without it..

14) I have a best fren who is always late when meeting me (YES, IS YOU!! MISS ONG!!!)

15) I m a MC queen, not that I wan it but I m always sick.. I can sick at least once every 2 months..

To be continued~~

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Lawrence and Alicia winks
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Monday, June 19, 2006

09 June to 13 June 2006 - Our 5D4N Taiwan holiday.

Taiwan can be real fun but think we have chosen the wrong time to go as it is their raining season. Out of the 5 days we were there, it poured for 3 days.

When we touched down in Taipei' international airport, we were greeted by a (not so frenly but still ok).. After counting the no. of people which was only 13 of us, the not-so-frenly tour guide, Xiao He, took us to our 1st hotel in Hong Shu Lin..

The ceiling of our hotel lobby. Remind me of the Da Vinci Code.. Leonado Da Vinci's work?

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As our 1st day was free & easy, Xiao He was kind enough to bring us to take their skytrain to Dan Shui station (jus a stop away from our hotel station) for a glance of their street food aka xiao chi & also shops selling clothes, bags & accessories..

Taking pix in the train is strictly prohibited hence u can only see abit of the train here. Hey, what u expect, I risk my life in taking this pix leh.. hahaa..

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It was raining when we reached there. Surprisingly, their pricing are not as economic as I always thought.. Their standard of living can be as high as ours so to speak..

A big King Kong at the entrance of a shop.

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The biggest worm I ever seen!!

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Everywhere we went, we saw mountains.. Xiao He said almost 80% of Taiwan lands r mountains!!!

This mountain is called Guan Yin Mountain.

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After spending there for nearly 2hrs, we were back to our hotel to meet Xiao He again & this time, he took us to the famous Shilin Ye Shi (nite market)..

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This is the Taiwan most famous sausage, dun be mistaken that u r getting the whole of the sausage when u buy, they will only cut a few pieces for u..

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Everything is so big here in Taiwan, look at the watermelon!! keke..

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Beside tasting the sausages, we also tried the big fried chicken (which Singapore is also selling), fried oyster with eggs & a tian fu ruo (dun know what is it but it tasted almost the same as oyster with egg except without the oyster). Well, we didn't really enjoy the food as it was so much different from Singapore's, most food tasted sweet instead of salty.. & there r NO CHILLI SAUCE!!!! Its a torture to me if there is no chilli sauce.. hahaa.. But give the benefit of doubt, their fruits taste super sweet BUT expensive.. I spent S$7.50 to buy a pack of cut honeydews..

Ya, I was looking at the map while waiting for the train to come, I saw this

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Taiwan got a street named Hougang too!! hahaa...

On the 2nd day, Xiao He took us to their miniaturization park which is the 2nd largest in the world aka Xiao Ren Guo.. Greeted us were mountains again..

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It was raining that time too & we were so cold while walking thru the miniture buildings & models..

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This is the famous hotel that only the rich can stay.. Too bad we can only took pix outside.. It look like a grand temple instead of hotel rite?

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We were also went to Peacock Garden to see the beautiful peacocks. According to Xiao He, u must be real lucky to be able to see the peacock open its feather..

& boy, we r so so lucky mann!!

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Very beautiful rite??

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The soldiers aka xian bing..

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Quite poor thing cos during their 1 hr duty, they r not allow to move under hot weather, also cannot blink their eyes as well!!

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Me inside the bus.. Looking very tired.. Imagine we have to wake up as early as 6.15am & change different hotels almost everyday..

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My niece & nephew having fun riding this thing in a shopping centre..

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They have puppet show entertaining people.. keke..

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101 Shopping Centre, the tallest building in the world.. Too bad, we didn't have time to go in as its the last day for me in Taiwan..

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We were in our hotel lobby waiting for Xiao He on the last day in Taiwan..

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Living standard is pretty high in Taiwan, their clothings & accessories price almost the same as Singapore.. & the food in foodcourts can cost at last S$6 - $10..

If you got a chance to visit Taiwan, do take note not to say anything bad about the place, food or people.. They will take offend if you does..

YAH!! I bought this for me & 1 for my dear too..

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& I m S$388 poorer now.. :P

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Lawrence and Alicia winks
at |8:05 PM|

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Hey hey hey!!!

Sorry for the late update on my Bangkok trip..

Well, its my 2nd time in Bangkok since 3yrs ago & surprisingly this time, I didn't buy alot of stuff cos out of these 4days I only spent S$270!! Amazing rite??

See pix ok?

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Our hotel, Asia Hotel lobby.. Quite impressive rite? Accordingly, there is a swimming pool & a gym centre somewhere too!

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Our room!! Very spacious & a KING SIZE BED!!

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After putting our luggage inside our hotel room on day 1, we went to take the Skytrain (BTS) which is conveniently linked to our hotel to Siam station where Siam Paragon, Siam Discovery Centre & MBK are there..

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Siam Paragon is jus like our very own Paragon in Orchard, all the high class boutiques were situated there..

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After awhile, we decided not to waste our time there & proceed to MBK.. We had our 1st lunch, KFC.. hahahaaa...

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2 funny incidents we encountered when we were there.. When we were trying to explore more shopping centres, crossing the roads to another side, suddenly anyone on the street stopped walking & stand still.. Dear told me to stand still as well.. Then I realised that their national song was broadcasted via outdoor radio & its a rule or something that they hav to stop when they hear the national anthem once every morning & evening..

Another interesting incident was, when we were walking on the overhead bridge, a policeman signal us to run faster to the front, like others, we ran for a short distance & then joined the crowd to see what happen.. The traffic on road below was cleared too.. Then we saw a few traffic police motors followed by a VIP car.. Talking about heart attack, I almost got twice mann.. hahaaa...

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Road cleared for VIP

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Stand still, dun move!!

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They really have great respect for their King, everywhere we go, there is a pix of him..

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Anyway we had our 1st dinner in a small restaurant near our hotel..

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Very sweet watermelon juice

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Yummy pineapple rice!!

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We saw this in one of the shopping centre, Big C...

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Best from Singapore?? Hahahaa.. We walked near & found that they r selling coffee bread like those type of Rotiboy bread..

I bought this... nicee & sweet..

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We went Chatukchak weekends market, it was so so big & hot that we didn't complete all sections.. Think once u went to some sections, u been to all cos basically they sell the same things.. Alot of household decorations, watches, shoes, belts, bags, T-shirts, accessories, roadsides foods, pets..

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This is a very nice dessert, its coconut ice... It only cost a S$1!!!

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Waiting for people to buy them home...

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Also we covered MBK for 2 times, bought some tidbits from there too.. the T-shirts there cost S$4+ only.. The only thing we abit regret is we never went for the tiger show.. hahaha... cos we afraid that we will get con into a "black" one...

The food is real cheap in Bangkok.. Swensen... Only cost us less than S$10 for this!!!

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This steamboat buffet only cos us less than S$5 each.. It work similarly like the buffet in Marina South.. Except the grilling is on top & soup is in the bottom.. We hav difficulty to keep the meat from falling into the soup..

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The day I most enjoyed is we went Dream world.. Taking the rides & having loads of fun in their Snow Town...

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SNOW TOWN!!!!!

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Some things u really must take note when u r in Bangkok, U MUST ALWAYS ASK THE TAXI DRIVER TO ON THEIR METER... we got cheated twice for an agreement rate only to realise we can get half the amount if they on their meter.. Yah, also try not to go anywhere which will travel more than 1 hr away from ur hotel.. We encountered that.. Some taxi drivers refused to take us back to our hotel when we went Dream world cos it was too far..

Also another interesting fact is, the ladies toilet in their shopping centre is forever available without me having to queue up like in Singapore.. In our hometown here, wherever u go, u hav to queue up for the ladies, cubicles r ALWAYS occupied....

Thai people r very very frenly too.. My own personal opinion, I think they r can easily ranged 2nd after Jap for their excellent customer service..

That all folk!!

Next entry I shall blog about my taiwan trip.. :)

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Lawrence and Alicia winks
at |9:55 PM|